Meditations in an Emergency
I wake up & it breaks my heart. I draw the blinds & the thrill of rain breaks my heart. I go outside. I ride the train, walk among the buildings, men in Monday suits. The flight of doves, the city of tents beneath the underpass, the huddled mass, old women hawking roses, & children all of them, break my heart. There's a dream I have in which I love the world. I run from end to end like fingers through her hair. There are no borders, only wind. Like you, I was born. Like you, I was raised in the institution of dreaming. Hand on my heart. Hand on my stupid heart.
Cameron Awkward-Rich is an assistant professor of Women, Gender, & Sexuality Studies at the University of Massachusetts, Amherst. Before arriving at UMass, he was a postdoctoral associate in transgender studies with the program in Gender, Sexuality, and Feminist Studies at Duke University.