Carolyn Winfrey Gillette
The Remnant of the Fury Will Not Go
The remnant of the fury will not go;
the murmur of unstopping worry stays.
I see the pain my friend will always know;
and she— who never lived her childhood days,
who grew up fast, and broken and confused—
once told me what it’s like to be abused.
She carries weight beyond her strength to bear—
the guilt, at being told it was her fault,
the secrecy that led her to despair,
confusion when a perpetrator, caught—
A “man of God”— became the one relieved
While she who cried for help was disbelieved.
What boundaries, broken once, can be made right?
Will institutions change and now repent?
Will shame that lived within, just out of sight,
now linger on and stay and build a tent
(unwanted guest!) and make itself at home
while leaders make their poor excuses known?
And what of her and him and her and him
and thousands more whose stories are untold?
Internalizing violence as their sin,
they, too, have struggled, watching life unfold;
What is the remnant that is always near?
O God, have mercy! Bring your healing here.
This poem is by Carolyn Winfrey Gillette, after a conversation with the Rev. Catherine Alder, with Catherine’s permission and encouragement to share. Catherine is a survivor, UCC pastor and LCSW. Copyright © 2018 by Carolyn Winfrey Gillette. All rights reserved. Email: email@example.com ; Permission is given to share the poem with copyright and email address. Carolyn's poems and hymns can be found at www.carolynshymns.com
GREAT RESOURCES: FaithTrust Institute envisions a world where all persons are free from violence in relationships, faith is fundamental to ending violence, religious institutions create a climate in which abuse is not tolerated; faith communities become sanctuaries of safety, worthy of our trust; and all of us experience justice and healing in our communities. http://www.faithtrustinstitute.org. Their free, archived webinars can be viewed at anytime and offer valuable insight and education about the intersection of faith with sexual and domestic violence and child abuse, as well as the importance of clergy ethics and healthy relationships in preventing harm. https://www.gotostage.com/channel/300000000000444958
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